Back to Work

Twelve weeks sure went by fast.  Today was my first day back to work and to be honest it was really hard on me.  I knew it would be, but man was I a mess.  It started last week.  I cried a few nights thinking about it in bed, then Saturday while Justin and I were at dinner and then last night...oh last night was bad.  I didn't want to lay her down when she fell asleep I just kept holding her and when I did lay her down I was a mess.  I love this little girl like crazy.  If I could stay home with her I would in a heartbeat, but it just isn't in the cards for me.  This mornings routine went smoothly, but as I was driving her there I broke down and while I was inside the daycare and leaving I totally lost it.  Those first few hours at work were the toughest, but gradually it got better because I knew I got to see her at lunch and her Daddy was picking her up early.  Miss Lisa said she did really well.  She text & sent me some pics of her throughout the day which helped.  I am hoping tomorrow is easier on me, but I am not sure.  I was never so excited to get home today and see her only to finding her sleeping in her swing :(  But I got a few hours with her tonight and I treasured them...I always will.